So a new night is upon us and I am writing to pass the time. Today I do have a lot to say, and you will hear it, if my eyes can keep open long enough. 1st let me say this it is Feb. 25, 2006 but I won’t post this until tomorrow, why? Because I am lazy and in bed and that is were I wish to stay. 2nd I am a little over full and that also caused a little lazy- ness. I think my goal is not to lose weight but to gain fitness, I am pretty healthy and I could live with my weight but I sometimes go to far with trying to lose it so. I want to become super fit I want to run further I want to swim longer, I want to bike slick rock, and climb half dome with the chains. next year when I am at Manchu pichu I what to know I carried my own pack and didn’t feel like I was going to die on the trail I want to know my body is at it top not somewhere in the middle, when I look in the mirror and see me I want to see the new me not the old one who I still see.. Anyway what does that have to do with country music I don’t know but it has to do with me and that’s what your getting so far…..

New subject, I am ready to move on and I feel very comfortable about this new phase in life I know I will pass class if I put my mind to it and not give up which sometimes I do because I am so comfortable..
I have been working again on a new song yes I know, another 2 lines what the heck is up with this chick…A lot… but that’s not the point is it the point is that I am a well of country music inspiration…
Here is goes
I feel
Like a thousand tiny pieces
All around me
Broken jagged pieces
Shining on the ground
Crap the paper I wrote it on is in the other room I will find it when I drag my lazy ass out of the bed and write the rest tomorrow….
Standing on the edge
Toes barely in
Red water washes over
Me
Calling life in
Colorado run wild
And set my heart free
To run the rapids
Where time has let it be

Ok so I was going somewhere with that but now I need to close my eyes and rest and well be more lazy, never got to all the stuff I was going to write about but such is the life of this modern day cowboy……..

So I live in utah and although it is a desert, I live in the high mountian Area. So it snows and sometimes a lot dpending on the lake effect. What I am saying is that a state with the best snow on earth, WE should all know how to drive in it right?? Well no because once we have a few good days of spring like weather we have all forgotten that driving in the snow means not driving 90 to nut not tailgaiting and for hell sakes don't brake like you are on dry pavement. So what happens is 600 accidents later we are all standing a round scratching our heads asking what happened. Last night it took us 2 hours about to get home from saltlake on a normal night you could get home in 45 minutes. The thing that shocked me was that people were talking on cell phones and zooming in and out of the slow traffic only to get a few feet before slamming on their brakes..Humm I wonder what would rush hour look like if we all drove horses I couldn't imagin I-15 dead locked at 4pm with a roll over horse because some Jack ass tailgated..Humm

Anyway enough gripes.....For now. I hae been on the verge of something great, I know you all know that because I have said it what a million times. Yet nothing has come from it. Well I feel it will soon so wait for it and you can catch me on the way up.

don't you know where I've been
who I am
and what I did
whould you love me just the
same
if you'd know my former name
life has passed us
one by one
changing faces of what we've done
the past is now as yesterday was
and I will live with what I've become



So random is life that we must take it at will and never let go of what we dream and see as our future I believe I will be the person I see comming I just don't know what she will be and that my friend is all you get from this modernday cowboy today....

Not a long post tonight I just wanted to inform the world that my mind has been working overtime today and yesterday and I must need a vacation because my day dreams are happening a lot... Oh well what else is a modernday cowboy to do.. So anyway soon you will have a great post to read but I can't say when because you know as well as I do that I am bad at keeping a writting date. Hey I have been taping stuff on my cell phone because I can't write and drive at the same time so the recording part of the cell phone has come in handy I will maybe post the cell phone section on my next post

Ok have to go to sleep need to go to the gym early so good night from me The modernday cowboy

I have seen a million sunsets
but none of them made since
untill I let it go and forgot
about the past

Crap I forgot to say I am a modernday cowboy for the last blogg and for this blogg I am still a modernday cowboy .....

So one more day to entertain you.. Wow I can hear the gasp of the huddled masses who await my every word.. Ok so maybe that is just me but at least I know I have a fan......I have just read a blogg that I enjoyed by my best bud in ga. I should put in a link here on my page but after reading hers I am afraid you will leave me... I mean hers is adventure and mines a country song.....

Back to my madness, This radio that plays in my head as I drive forcing me to pull over and write down the smallest thought so I don't forget them before the next mile marker is insane. Maybe not as insane as my middle of the day, day dream about a stranger and the beach but still strange... Just 20 minutes ago while driving a few miles back home I was hit with this....


She won't give up
what she thinks she knows
And every day her troubles
Grow
.....He's gone...., he gone.. ( could this be Good?? Just a thought now not part of orignal madness)

She don't want to feel this
way
Walking up lonley
every day
And he's gone
When will she move on

Now I know there isn't much to that, but it changed 3 or 4 times before I stopped and wrote it down, what if the 1st time it came in my head was a #1 and messed it up by not pulling over Ugg I feel as though I need a Road trip ( what do you say J ) and then maybe my truest talent Will be released...
I can maybe come up with a song worthy of george straight or joe schomoe Who knows

By the way I plan on expanding my day dream to a full blogg comming soon to a page near you.. It will be called fanasty beach or something to that affect lets see what I can come up....

So I am out dated, well at least a little behind date for this blog. I say one thing, do the next and nothing gets done. I guess you could say I am a girl and you know what you would be right. So let me start somewhere, have I finished a song yet? well yes, but I am not posting it just yet you have to wait.
I went for a walk in the freezing cold this morning and I jogged in the cold and I listened to a few songs, love in an elevator, I'm just a girl, some uncle cracker song, dierks bently, something else and then my cool down song. She thinks the rain is sexy ( kenny Chesney) Yes I do by the way, even if the song was not written about me I feel it is hahaha. Anyway while I was jogging and walking to the other songs I was thinking about life, things like I hope I can see this or do that and I hope I will be ok here and there and everywhere in between, I was thinking of the now every day kind of things. Then the sexy song comes on, right away I see myself sitting on the beach under a large umbrella warm rain hitting the sand, snapping a few priceless pictures and writting, you know, living in the moment. I would have guessed all the other people woud have left the beach except me and in the distance a stranger. I place my camera down ( were it won't get wet or sand in it, for it is my baby) and I take off my shoes and walk down to the waves they crash over my feet I raise my arms and lift my head and I feel alive. I walk in further and it crashes around my knees this is what sexy feels like being free to be who you are dancing in the rain while they think your insane, and then that stranger walks up and askes what I am doing. I say I am spending a few more minutes in paradise before I leave, He asks how long have you been here, I say about 4 hours. And you leaving already?, he asks. Yeah I reply. Thats not long enough he says, And to this I say One minute spent in a beautiful place is enough, if I plan to see them all.. And then I walk away.... This is a true statement, the one minute I spent in my day dream was wonderful, that one moment found in the beauty of my crazy mind was reasuring that I am insane, no kidding it was reassurance that I can make it all happen I can have it and if it is just for a minute at least i had that...

SO I may not have everything I want, I may not be what I want to be but I have the chance to be if only for a moment ......

Ok ok I am nuts but you keep reading to see just how nuts....


Some say you have to rock
When the road your on rolls
Hell I been there
And this is all I know

you may not be who
you want be
and you may see all
you want to see
but take the trail that calls
to you
follow down the bumpy road
no one can change where
you'll go
just rock where you rolled
and that is all I know

What the ..... Good night cowboy, Goody night

I am the modern day cowboy