So I am out dated, well at least a little behind date for this blog. I say one thing, do the next and nothing gets done. I guess you could say I am a girl and you know what you would be right. So let me start somewhere, have I finished a song yet? well yes, but I am not posting it just yet you have to wait.
I went for a walk in the freezing cold this morning and I jogged in the cold and I listened to a few songs, love in an elevator, I'm just a girl, some uncle cracker song, dierks bently, something else and then my cool down song. She thinks the rain is sexy ( kenny Chesney) Yes I do by the way, even if the song was not written about me I feel it is hahaha. Anyway while I was jogging and walking to the other songs I was thinking about life, things like I hope I can see this or do that and I hope I will be ok here and there and everywhere in between, I was thinking of the now every day kind of things. Then the sexy song comes on, right away I see myself sitting on the beach under a large umbrella warm rain hitting the sand, snapping a few priceless pictures and writting, you know, living in the moment. I would have guessed all the other people woud have left the beach except me and in the distance a stranger. I place my camera down ( were it won't get wet or sand in it, for it is my baby) and I take off my shoes and walk down to the waves they crash over my feet I raise my arms and lift my head and I feel alive. I walk in further and it crashes around my knees this is what sexy feels like being free to be who you are dancing in the rain while they think your insane, and then that stranger walks up and askes what I am doing. I say I am spending a few more minutes in paradise before I leave, He asks how long have you been here, I say about 4 hours. And you leaving already?, he asks. Yeah I reply. Thats not long enough he says, And to this I say One minute spent in a beautiful place is enough, if I plan to see them all.. And then I walk away.... This is a true statement, the one minute I spent in my day dream was wonderful, that one moment found in the beauty of my crazy mind was reasuring that I am insane, no kidding it was reassurance that I can make it all happen I can have it and if it is just for a minute at least i had that...

SO I may not have everything I want, I may not be what I want to be but I have the chance to be if only for a moment ......

Ok ok I am nuts but you keep reading to see just how nuts....


Some say you have to rock
When the road your on rolls
Hell I been there
And this is all I know

you may not be who
you want be
and you may see all
you want to see
but take the trail that calls
to you
follow down the bumpy road
no one can change where
you'll go
just rock where you rolled
and that is all I know

What the ..... Good night cowboy, Goody night

I am the modern day cowboy