So I am a little behind as always when it comes to writting. I always think of doing it I have all intentions of doing it but some how I fall short. I guess it is just who I am and that is all I can be.

I need to point out that I have watched a number of westerns in my life some by choice and some by hapen stance. And not once have I seen the clumsy cowboy. I have never seen them lock their keys in the car, fall down the esculator or get their arm stuck in the mall doors. Sure they get drunk, they fall down and on ocassion they fall off the horse but never do they have the problems that I have. I feel like a cowboy but I act like a clown. DO you know anywhere that I can fix this problem. Should I go to cowboy school? Maybe I should just pay attention to things...
YEs I am clumsy and I will admit that I spend time in the clouds. But I am so close to finishing a song that the world better watch out because here I come. soon you will read the best song you have ever read. it is something to look forword to. gives you reason to come back here when you do and I can't wait for my fan mail...hahahaha

Right now I have ten munutes on my battery and 5 minutes before I fall to sleep. SO I am a modern day cowboy who needs a little lesson on how to stay unhurt. SO teach me ....
good night till we meet again.....

Absolute slience. I heard it even though it was masked but superficial sounds. I watched the sun set behind the mountains the other day when I was in a different valley. It is so beautiful andcold and slient. I don't know how to explain it. When I see the sun set over the lake it takes my breath away sometimes. The color reflecting off the lake but I never think of it as quiet. yet here I was in the mountains watching the color fade into the snow caps. Feeling the early night cool set over me. And it did it with such grace and quietness that if you didn't stop to see it, you would have never know that it happened. The pink started high in the sky slowly sinking to the top of the mountains. It became part of the snow, not tinged pink and it seem so peaceful. A moment in time that may have been missed if I cared only about my life...

so my poem could go like this
I've walked among giants but none of them
men
I've watched as perfect slience covered the
land
when pink misty hues coved the
snow
..... Let me go some where with this and I'll get back to you. Oh yeah I have a story to tell later tonight so tune in. I have to run for now time to shopp Yuck

Later
modernday cowboy

Not every thing in my life is country. Although you could write quite a few country songs about it. It is not my whole life. I in fact love hair bands from the 80’s the ones I grew up with. I have theme songs for my life that have nothing to do with anything in my life they just represent a moment in time. I love the def leopard song “love bites” I can hear it all day long and I would be happy. I don’t remember where I was going with all this but when I figure it all out I will continue.
I didn’t get the job I went down town for. You know the one I locked my keys in the car after. Yep I was right that was a sign. Oh well I will stick out the retail world for a little longer. I did get a night time 4 to 6 week job that will net me the money I need to go to the Bahamas. That’s good. But listen to this on the day after thanksgiving I will be at the mall all day, no not just most of the day but all day 4am to 10pm Oh joy but I guess at least I am getting paid
No I haven’t worked on the song lately I have been typing up a cook book for work. SO as soon as that is done I will be on the writing path again..
Just so you know I need a drink. No make that a lot of drinks. I want to go to the bar and drink but I don’t want to pay. I want some young thing to buy me a few. Tell me how he loves a woman who’s a little older and then I want him to go away. No need for 2 men in my life just need that little something… Sorry but if he is rich and hot and he buys enough drinks I may run off with him to New Zealand and live happily ever after with a few sheep and our own adventure company. Everything a woman like me needs.. Sorry ch
I have been sick lately. So I can blame my bad blog on that so until my head clears I have an excuse , and after that it’s going to be too much turkey, then to much shopping ( yuck) , then Christmas, oh the stress. And after that it’s the whole new year thing. Followed by valentines day which in my mind is a strange not really important holiday that only makes people like me fat.. But after that I will have no excuse so you’ll have to keep up with this until say march when I should start to write the good stuff..
Good night
The cowboy

Adventure, Time taken to explore your world. To some people going to Wal-Mart is an adventure and rightfully so. It can be something different there.
For me adventure is the drive that lives inside me. Sometimes it calls me so much I am driven to do something. I Like to get done and tell people about my adventures. I am not a quiet explorer if I have done it, you will probably hear about it. Sorry those things are to cool to keep a secret. I even told a total stranger at a bar about meeting a bear, mind you alcohol was involved but I would have told him later anyway.. So why do some seek this way of life while others could careless about crossing the street let alone hike in the mountains. I hold my camera and look through the lens. I see perfectly framed beauty. Each tiny peck on a flower and every jagged peak. I am drawn to figure them out. I want to seek that feeling in real size. While other hardly look through the lens and just snap, not taking in to account the little beauty around them. DO I think that their life is lacking that they must be missing something great? Yes, but I think that they must feel I miss normal things.
So what am I saying to live with out doing is not living it’s just going through the emotions with out real result.
Why do I let work make me so mad. Why do I let people push my buttons. Why do I lock my keys in the car while I am down town for a job interview?? Because that is my life. I live enough to write a million country songs and by god I am trying. I talked with my 1st step father, how many do I have you ask well that would be 4. Anyway this man was a father figure for me when I was young. He wasn’t a good one 99 % of the time but he was one. He was a Drunk, he will admit it. I remember him trying to kill my mom by holding her head in a sink of water filled with dishes. I remember my mother running him over with the car. I also remember the good times of him fixing me green eggs and ham after we read the book. See I was only 2 or 3 and those things will be with me for life. It makes me who I am and I guess it was an adventure growing up in the house. I once wrote a report about it when I was in high school my teacher who loved everything I wrote told me she loved it. That she wanted to keep a copy but that I was to write about something that really happened to me. I told her it did and I still think she couldn’t believe half of what I said. So I will write a song and maybe she will hear it and think of me and my “FAR FETCHED “ stories she loved so much. She always said she knew one day she would pick up a book or read in a magazine a story that I wrote she said that when I finally learned how to spell I would be unstoppable I guess I haven’t learned that yet. But I an working on it..
Ride on little doggies to the place you seek.
Find shelter and something warm to eat
When the sun sets
The songs we’ll sing
Good night little cowboy
Good night sweet thing
The modern day cowboy rides again

Imagine the shock and horror that come with answering a personal ad and the man who comes to pick you up is my uncle. I don’t think that you expect to meet someone like that from the personals. Although I am sure you have to know that they may be a little less than perfect. I hate to sound like a meanie but really my uncle, as nice as he can be, is a con-artist. He is a good talker, but he is not attractive. Missing a few teeth, skinny, run down trucker. Who will probably take you for every penny you have. This is a warning I am just letting you know the dangers of answering the call for love in the local newspaper. He is out there, his ad is new and I am sure it sounds good. By the way if you do go on one date with him I am sure you will be hooked. I can’t explain it but it will happen. It’s a freak of nature.
Nothing new has really graced my life.. OH Wait I have a NEW BABY, if you know me don’t freak out. It isn’t a baby, baby but to me it is. It is a new camera, Oh but not any camera. A Wonderful piece of equipment that will be with me every where, unless it can get broken. I have to say thank you, thank you, thank you, to Chris, although you know I am paying for most of it no matter what you say.. I have to be an adult and pay for my own toys. Other wise people may think I am using them for my own gain.
I plan on taking a butt load of pictures and no one can stop me. In fact last night I took a few of my guitar, some of my feet, and then the dog. I am out of control. But the best part I don’t have to buy film so I can take pictures of the lamp shade. I love art when you don’t have to pay to see it.
I can’t wait until I go to the Bahamas, By the way I don’t care when we go as long as we go. I just can’t wait Wahoo.
Songs are doing good in fact I am working on two right now they are ones I have been working on for a while but I have decided I can try 2 at the same time. That way I don’t have to put any way. I really hope to have something good, soon.
As a modern Day cowboy I feel it is my duty to keep my fences mended. Yet at this point I am a little behind. There is so much I should do but, I feel like the world has stalled and going out to do them is hard. Actually it is the lazy nature of the drifter in me that refuses to get the fences mended. Because if I mended those fences I would be stuck in the field.. Oh well I guess my personalities are in conflict again. Or I am just crazy Who knows…..

How do we lie to those we love: Easy we are selfish We want what we want and don’t what some one to think we could do wrong. Truth is we are all hiding something from loved ones. It could be as simple as how much you spent on those new shoes. To having a girl on the side. Why do I bring this up.. Well my uncle he is a RED NECK but not in the good way. He has been married half a hundred times to some really smart and pretty women yet he is less than desirable. He has at times been married to more than one. Yet all the time he has had one girl he has never married. She has always been there through all his crap. Jail time, drug use, womanizing every single piece. And Now he has moved out of her house and into mine, to take care of my grandmother. Because I am not doing a good job. To tell you the truth he’s waiting for her to die but I hate to tell him, she is so stubborn that she may out live me. Anyway He has yet to figure out his cell phone so when he makes his nightly call to this woman I can hear every thing she says and since he is just in the next room I can hear his knee high sh**. I wonder how much you have to love someone, that you put up with that. Don’t you think that one day after 30 years yes 30 years you ask you self what is so wrong with me that I am stuck with that. Hummm the love life of some people. There are those who don’t have one and need one, and those who have one but need not to. See This life he has screams country music, you guessed it I have started a new song…
He has her on the phone
Every other night
Keeping her close
While living his
Life
I can’t stop the lies
I can’t say she wrong
No that’s not it but you get the theme, I Just don’t need someone else to steal my good work.. Haha. Crazy as I am, I have thought of a theme for a book but I have to finish a song 1st. I told a friend last night I had a blog they didn’t seem to impressed. I guess only I think it is cool….
I really wanted to write a lot today but I have no real thoughts so I will go hopefully I will write tomorrow. But I don’t know for sure
Till then Good night
From me the modern day cowboy……