I have been in a funk, I would love to blame it on the fact that I am giving up my hot chocolate but alas I didn't drink it that much. What is going on is life itself I have this whole greatness thing looming in the picture. I have a job that is about to screw me and others like me, and I am me. First off I like me I really do. In fact I think everyone likes me even if they won't admit it. But I have a serious Attitude ( sometimes) that truley you'd have to be a sait not to punch me. And the funny thing is I know it, I just can't stop it. I think I have the right to say and do as I want but others can't say and do what they want to me.. ( note this is not everyday just on occasion) The other thing about me is if I could mess it up then I would. I feel I should let you all in on the Dierks Bently mishap just to prove a point.. here is goes..

So I joined his fan club becuse he is a great song writter I love his music and yes he is easy enough on the eyes. Anyway I signed up for the meet and greet at the utah state fair and I got a pass. I was excited I could tell him how much I loved this song and ask how he wrote it. But my mind started to get me. I wondered what do you say to people who are famous. Do they really want to talk to you . I consulted a friend that has met famous people and she said it was ok and I was fine. So the day came and I had instructions on where to go and how to meet him.. Yeah I didn't pay attention so I went to the wrong side and anyway I wond up being late to meet him. So they were rushing us through and so when I finally get up there to meet him I put my hand out with the item I wanted him to sign and he didn't take it. He said I want to shake your hand, I didn't pay attention. So he said it really slow I just want to shake your hand. To make it worse I'm not sure I ever did shake his hand, I remember him taking the camera from me and handing it over. and I didn't say one word other than my name. Yeah I am a dork. I am completely sure if I ever meet him again he will be hey your that chick who wouldn't shake my hand... Yep if I can mess up I will...Maybe when I get this song done and I am famous it won't matter how messed up I am ( HAHAHA)

So I am in search of a new job. One that will send me every where, I want to travel 300 days a year I want to go and see even if it from a plane window. Do you have any idea where I can find that job?? if you know of one let me know really I will owe you for life.. Because I am unsettled I need an unsettled life to go with it. And just maybe in the long run that will settle me down..

Tomorrow is going to be the best blog ever for me so you should stop back by. The song is going well still and I have a few good things to yap about..

By the way I am a modern day Cowboy

night