ok so Maybe I won't say I am a modern day cowboy ... No I will " I am a modern day cowboy and proud of it..There that said I can go on. Maybe tonight I will finish a few more lines like I did after the last entry.
I had a conversation about addiction with my brothers wife to be today. She herself being addicted to meth. I have never understood addiction. I have never been addicted to anything ( at least I didn't think I was) I asked why she would do something that would mess her up. Make her give her child to random people to raise. She really didn't have the answer. What she did have was the idea that it made her hate herself when it was over but love it while it was on. She said it was a need that would drive her crazy if she let it. I started to think, I was addicted to something and it is something silly. Every day I lay around the house hating the idea of getting up and going to the gym, I love the gym while I am there but hate just going. So I lay there and the only thing that gets me up and out is that when I am done at the gym I can stop by 7-11 and get a 16oz hot chocolate with 2 irish cream creamers. Yes that is what drives me to the gym. Sad and silly I know but I am addicted to it and as of today ( yes I did it today ) I am giving it up, I will go to the gym for one reason health and I will by pass the 7-11 and not spend my 1.27 on my monkey my addiction. Yes I understand it just a little, I am glade thats all I can relate it to.
Like I said I finished a few lines and for the last day or so I have had the same songin my head I have played with the words changed the beat. I have been very focused and that is a good thing. Yeah if I sit idle for a minute other things start to creep in and if someone says just the right thing a new song starts, but I am focusing in on just one or at least trying..
well that is all for today I am sure will have more to write later and something fun to read I hope but the battery is half dead on my lap top so I should go. I will sing the song that gives me joy and maybe just maybe come up with something better than the hot coco addiction...
I had a conversation about addiction with my brothers wife to be today. She herself being addicted to meth. I have never understood addiction. I have never been addicted to anything ( at least I didn't think I was) I asked why she would do something that would mess her up. Make her give her child to random people to raise. She really didn't have the answer. What she did have was the idea that it made her hate herself when it was over but love it while it was on. She said it was a need that would drive her crazy if she let it. I started to think, I was addicted to something and it is something silly. Every day I lay around the house hating the idea of getting up and going to the gym, I love the gym while I am there but hate just going. So I lay there and the only thing that gets me up and out is that when I am done at the gym I can stop by 7-11 and get a 16oz hot chocolate with 2 irish cream creamers. Yes that is what drives me to the gym. Sad and silly I know but I am addicted to it and as of today ( yes I did it today ) I am giving it up, I will go to the gym for one reason health and I will by pass the 7-11 and not spend my 1.27 on my monkey my addiction. Yes I understand it just a little, I am glade thats all I can relate it to.
Like I said I finished a few lines and for the last day or so I have had the same songin my head I have played with the words changed the beat. I have been very focused and that is a good thing. Yeah if I sit idle for a minute other things start to creep in and if someone says just the right thing a new song starts, but I am focusing in on just one or at least trying..
well that is all for today I am sure will have more to write later and something fun to read I hope but the battery is half dead on my lap top so I should go. I will sing the song that gives me joy and maybe just maybe come up with something better than the hot coco addiction...
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