I am always going to start with I am a modern day cowboy, Even though I am a girl and not into rodeo. Because Cowboy is a way of life, a deep seeded feeling that is inside a restlessness not felt by all, and not welcomed by most. I am a rebel inside a well mannered, nice talkin, chick. Ok well at least inside a Chick the rest may be a little bit of a stretch.

I mend my "fences" I ride my "hourse" and at times I have taken the fall so yes I am A modern day cowboy...

So I want to explain my title The country Music mind. It has a lot to do with what I am feeling, the state of Mind I am in now. You see music influces me to the core of what I am. All music not just country ( other than rap is a little to much for me, but it has moments). I hear it in layers the guitar, the picks and cords. The words, the meaning to the words, the back ground, everything. And if the song is good it sends me into creative over load. So of all the music that moves me country is tops, it is something that has been ingrained in me from birth. I remember sitting, ok more like laying in the back window of the car ( that should tell you I am older) listening to the most beautiful voice in the world, my mother. You must know that I really didn't like my mother, but her voice was something I could only hope to have one day. She would sing all kinds of country like pasty cline and, umm so I can only remember pasty. But she would put her heart and sole into, and I was amazed. I would get home only to hear the old country records my grandparents played and I loved it. I knew it all and that may be why I was a dork in school.. Well that was untill I found Def Lepord and New kids on the block, then I was cool. Or maybe not. Anyway Music for me is like a rollercoaster and like all rollercoasters you end where you began, and for me that is country music.

I went to a concert 3 weeks ago. Dierks Bently, If you don't know him you should. And ever since that concert I have felt an over whelming feeling of greatness. It feels as though it is right around the corner. What is it, what great thing is going to happen? I don't know, but what I do know it 's not a new Job, or love, or even a ton of money. Somethings you can feel and they all feel wrong. I think it has something to do with me getting out there, making a difference being what I was born to be..This feel is not new, in fact I have felt it on and off again for about a year. The only thing that has changed is that it feels very demanding this time. As if it was like the bright end of a shooting star, so intense before it burns away. I need to figure it out.
My writting has increased. I have music in my head that comes out in burst, a line here a chourse there. All good if I wasn't channeling 20 different songs that wake me up at 2 in the morning just to write what little I can down. I want to finish just one of them like I used to when I was 21 to 23 before I moved to Georgia and lost my freeking mind. ( more on that later)
So what I hope to accomplish with this page, is to create an outlet for the things I have in my head. All the muck that keeps messing up the good stuff. Yep you get to read the crazy Muck...I hope to find the missing piece. Put my life puzzle together. And Maybe I can meet others like me, song writters with a misson. People who play the guitar better. Spell better. have written that travel book. Have life figured out. Anyone one who will help my babble and in turn I hope you get to see the trials of writting country music in the mind of me...